kool

the kool and the gang video "celebrate" came on this morning. i remember going to a rodeo when we lived in texas. kool and the gang was the musical guest for the night. it helped break up all the calf tying. if i remember correctly, i think they came out in a carriage of some sort. they were circling the arena in the carriage, singing. it all sounds too absurd and surreal to be true. that's how i remember it though. i remember being excited because they were famous. because my mom liked "celebrate" so much.

i just got word that two of my non-fiction essays have been accepted to appear in an anthology. celebration might be in order for me, no? will kool and the gang come? no calf tying allowed at my fete.

spring break officially starts for me today. i want to see the ocean more than anything this spring break. however, it wasn't that long ago that i came back from ny and then i head off to st. louis soon. but i want the water.

the art of restraint

this morning, very early, while i was at the store, i saw a balloon bobbing up and down near the magazines. a picture of elvis was emblazoned on said balloon with...wait for it...wait for it...the words "love me tender." it took all that strength i had to not buy it. for myself.

dear valentine

please have flowers delivered wednesday instead of thursday. you, of course, know i won't be in on thursday.

yours,

delusional

2007

1) Where did you begin 2007? In Atlanta watching MTV (something I never do), wearing a very cute dress, and dancing with a man in a nice suit and tie.

2) What was your status on Valentine's Day? Not sure what to call it...I had a date though.

3) Were you in school (anytime this year)? Sort of. No more coursework, but haven't taken comps yet.

4) How did you earn your money? Teaching the masses.

5) Did you have to go to the hospital? I had to take a friend to the hospital. He's fine.

6) Did you have any encounters with the police? Nada.

7) Where did you go on vacation? Chattanooga and Miami.

8) What did you purchase that was over $1000? Not one particular item, but I bought a LOT of clothes.

9) Did you know anybody who passed away? Yes.

10) Was anyone born? Nope.

11) Did you move anywhere? No.

12) How did you celebrate your birthday? With my parents and sister, a calzone from Lupi's, and a unicorn pinata.

13) What concerts/shows did you go to? BJORK!

14) Are you registered to vote? Yes.

15) Who did you want to win Big Brother? I don't watch Big Brother. Lo siento.

16) Where do you live now? In my head.

17) How did you spend your summer break? Teaching and putting together my portfolio for promotion.

18) What's one thing you thought you'd never do but did in 2007? Gain closure.

19) What has been your favorite moment? Seeing Bjork!

20) What's something you learned about yourself? I am a lot stronger than I thought.

21) Any new additions to your family? No.

22) What was your worst month? June.

23) What music will you remember 2007 by? Amy Winehouse.

24) Who has been your best drinking buddy? I don't drink.

25) Made new friends? Si.

26) New best friend? Myself.

27) Favorite night out? Valentine's Day or the Bjork concert.

28) What sporting events did you attend? Not a one.

29) What was your best month? This one.

30) Overall, how would you rate this year? Not so good, but it will make 2008 look FANTASTIQUE.

31) Other than home, where did you spend most of your time? Work.

32) Change your hairstyle? Of course. Quite a bit, actually.

33) Have any car accidents? No.

34) How old did you turn this year? 30.

35) Did you have a New Year's resolution? Yes.

36) Do anything embarrassing? Too many to name.

37) Buy anything new from eBay? Umm...yes.

38) Get married? Never.

39) Get arrested? No.

40) Be honest - did you watch American Idol? Not one episode.

41) Did you get sick this year? Yes. I took care of myself. Thank you very much.

42) Been snowboarding? Nope.

43) Are you happy to see 2007 go? YES!

44) Been naughty or nice? Both.

so fresh and so clean

there is nothing i dislike more than a cliche. therefore, one would think that i wouldn't be a fan of the idea of a new year and a fresh start. however, you would be so very wrong. i like the hope a new year brings. it's a clean slate. it's what i need and what i crave.

suddenly

closure.

sparkly

isn't the new and improved blog tres chic? been updating the website today. she might not be the prettiest, but she was assembled all with straight html code. take that.

magical

i can't quit writing. i have to remember what this feels like later when i can't string even two words together. i remember when i saw bjork in concert in september, at one point i looked around the theatre and thought to myself "remember this. remember this moment when things get really bad."

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i told my advisor that i was concerned with the subject matter of the thesis, of this full-length thing i am getting closer to finishing. he told me: "good poetry can save anything." i could've swooned. i can think of at least one thing a good poem could have saved.

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i'm writing. i'm writing. writing can feel like i'm slow dancing with a dreamy boy. we're dancing to jill scott.